Anonymous said: I've been studying up on different types of depression. And, while I ma be wrong, I've concluded that Cam had situational depression... Which in my opinion, makes his suicide all the more sad... What do you think?
It’s really hard to say since I still feel like we didn’t really get to know that much about Cam… We saw some peeks into what he was experiencing and we got some hints about his background, but it seemed like there was more fan speculation than actual details revealed about him in-show. As a result, it makes it hard for me to say!
Situational depression is a possibility since that typically arises in some people after they’ve undergone something difficult or traumatic (divorce, loss, break-ups, unemployment, etc.), and we did know that Cam was feeling quite homesick during his time at Degrassi. Moving and having a big change in lifestyle can certainly bring about situational depression in some people, so I would say that it’s a definite possibility!
What makes me hesitant to say anything definitively is the fact that we don’t really know much about Cam’s life before he moved to Degrassi. Maybe he’d experienced bouts of depression before moving, and in that case, I don’t think that situational depression quite fits. Instead, I’d consider clinical depression, AKA a mood disorder (likely a unipolar/depressive disorder).
Another thing that gives me pause is my interpretation of Cam as having a lot of anxiety…likely beyond just “normal” anxiety. Obviously we all feel anxiety (and depression, for that matter) from time to time. Negative feelings are just a part of being human, just like positive feelings are, but there’s a big difference between typical anxiety/depression and debilitating anxiety/depression, with the latter being potentially diagnosable. Considering the symptoms we can infer that Cam experienced, it wouldn’t surprise me if he had an anxiety disorder or struggled with anxiety beyond what is typical.
Anyway, I brought up his anxiety because from what I’ve learned and studied over the years, anxiety and mood disorders (including all depression disorders) are often comorbid in people. A lot of people who have anxiety also have depression…and the anxiety can affect and exacerbate the depression (and vice versa). I’m not sure if this point really strengthens any one “argument,” but I thought I’d bring it up!
In the end, it’s hard for me to say whether Cam had situational depression or a depressive disorder (like major depressive disorder) since I think I’d need to know more about his background and past experiences/symptoms before saying one way or the other. The argument for situational depression makes sense since we know that Cam was struggling a lot with being homesick and dealing with a big change in lifestyle, but if he’d been struggling with some of these symptoms for a while, then I’m not sure that situational depression would fit!
It’s interesting to think about…and obviously I have to add my little disclaimer that I’m in no way someone who could diagnose people with disorders, but I do think that it’s different when we’re discussing fictional characters who are written in certain ways…and as a result can be interpreted in certain ways. Everyone has their own interpretations of characters, storylines, etc., and it’s interesting to see what other people come up with through their own perspectives! :)
Anonymous said: thank you for your answer, it's so sweet of you to put so much time into an ask that would probably just get a short and basically unhelpful answer from anyone else :) i do think we're alike in that we feel a lot of what others feel, it's good to know that it's not just me who gets in that space of mind where it's basically all i can think of for a long time so once again thank you :) you're so lovely with giving advice and making your followers feel important and stuff :3 have a nice day
No problem! You’re very kind - I really appreciate all the nice things you said! :) It is really nice to know that others can relate…sometimes I feel kind of isolated when I get into one of those modes where I’m just feeling everything so deeply and finding it overwhelming and hard to snap out of. Obviously I’m not glad that others experience that too, of course, but it’s just kind of comforting to know that you’re not the only one and you don’t have to feel like a weirdo!
Anyway, thanks again for saying all of that! It means a lot. You have a nice day too! <3
Anonymous said: sometimes i think about killing myself but it's not because my own life is bad, it's because there's so much bad in the world i'm not sure i want to be around to hear about bad shit anymore
I’m sorry to hear that you feel this way and experience this. I can honestly say that I can relate to what you’re saying. Maybe I’m assuming too much about you (and I apologize if I am), but I think that there are some people out there like you and me who just feel things very deeply and have a lot of empathy…arguably to an overwhelming degree at times. It’s great to have empathy - to be honest, that quality is extremely important to me when seeking out people to have in my life - but when these kinds of feelings take over your thoughts and become overwhelming, it can be quite unpleasant.
I know that sometimes I get in these phases where I feel like I just cannot make myself stop thinking about all of the bad things in the world. I’ll dwell on certain topics and it’s super hard to make myself stop. It’s hard to shake it off sometimes. I feel things very deeply, and sometimes I worry more about other people (both the people in my life + strangers) than I do about myself. Anyway, sorry for rambling so much, but I guess I just wanted to say that I understand where you’re coming from and that I can relate. It all feels very overwhelming sometimes.
I guess I don’t have a ton of great solutions since I still struggle with this from time to time too… One thing I can say is that maybe getting involved with volunteer work or something could help (that is, if you don’t already do stuff like that!). I mean, I know that you might feel very small and like you can’t make a difference in the world, and maybe we as individuals cannot single-handedly change the entire world, but I’d like to think that we can make a small impact, you know? Putting in some time or donating some money/supplies to various charities, shelters, etc. (for both humans and other animals) can help. I know that some people knock internet activism as “slacktivism,” and that’s an argument that definitely can be made, but maybe getting involved on the internet could be productive too (again, that is if you don’t already do this!).
But on the other hand, I think that it’s important to take care of yourself too. I know that you said that it’s not your own life that makes you feel suicidal, but you still have to look out for yourself and your own well-being too. It’s good to try to help, but it’s also good to take care of yourself. Maybe you could try to surround yourself with things that make you feel happy or safe or content whenever you get into a mood like this. I guess that probably sounds kind of trite, but I sort of feel like… “what else can we do?” There are a lot of difficult aspects to living, and sometimes it’s hard to cope with the realities of our world, but really all we can do is to try our best. Maybe you could try to find a good emotional outlet for yourself (writing, painting, exercising — whatever you like). Lastly, maybe you could try talking to someone about this…and that could be anyone: a close friend, a family member, someone at [school/work/church/whatever activities you engage in], a counselor of some kind, etc. I guess most of what I’m saying is pretty obvious and these are likely things you’ve already thought of, but sometimes it can be beneficial to put your feelings out there and get some feedback. There’s nothing wrong with wanting to talk!
Anyway, I’m not sure if anything I said was helpful at all or not, and I apologize if I wasn’t helpful, but I really do think that I understand where you’re coming from. I’ve struggled with similar things before, and the world really can feel like an overwhelming place sometimes. So many bad things happen all the time, both to people we know and people we don’t, but a lot of good things happen too. It’s hard, but I sometimes just try to remind myself of some of the good things in the world too…and I don’t mean cliche things like sunsets or whatever…I mean that for every bad thing that happens, there’s probably a good thing out there that happens. People connect with each other, people help each other, people bond with other animals, people create wonderful art, people discover new things in science, people have fun with each other, people support each other, etc.
I hope that you’re doing okay and I hope that these feelings won’t be too overwhelming for you in the future. My ask box is always open! :)
This weekend has been super busy and exhausting, which is partly why I haven’t posted too much lately, but it’s mostly over now and I’m looking forward to relaxing on Sunday!
Sunday afternoon I’m going to my city’s LGBTQ+ pride parade. I went last year and had a good time and it was just kind of cool to see it since I live in a pretty conservative area. My mom is probably going to go with me tomorrow, which should be fun!
ericum replied to your post: “Summer is dying down and I’m starting to get pretty nervous about…”:
I’m in the same boat as you! Good luck this year, friend :)
Aww, thank you! Good luck to you as well, friend! :)
Summer is dying down and I’m starting to get pretty nervous about school starting soon. I’m dreading it, but I’m also kind of excited to just get this year over with and finally graduate after all these years. It’s taken me a little extra time to graduate for a variety of reasons, which sometimes makes me feel self-conscious, but I guess it’s not a big deal in the end.
Finally entering the “real” world after graduating is kind of exciting, I guess, but it mostly just makes me terribly nervous since sometimes I feel like I’m really not any better off than I was when I was like 17, except now I have a ton of student loan debt and a lot more anxiety.
I think this year I’m going to really try to get my shit together in a lot of different areas. I want to get good grades, finish the year off nicely, get healthier, lose some weight, try to work on my confidence, etc. I’d also really like to join some clubs at school. I’ve only barely participated in clubs/extracurriculars in college because I’ve been too anxious to attend many events and meetings, but that has made me sad since I was sooo involved in high school and my extracurriculars were the source of basically all of my happy memories from that time period…and I want more! I want to join the LGBTQ+ club and the feminist club. I’m already in the psychology club in name only, but I really ought to actually participate this year. I really hope I’ll follow through with actually trying!
Anyway, sorry for the very boring personal ramble! I know that people aren’t exactly following me for the dull posts about my personal life, but I guess I just wanted to write something.